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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

torn into pieces, 10/28/2008 09:56:00 PM

Hey y'all!!! i am abandoning this blog =(

do i have a new blog, you ask?

that's for me to know and for you to find out =)

love you! ciao!

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torn into pieces, 6/06/2008 10:00:00 PM

TRUMPET SECTION OUTING

5th June 2008

2.30pm - 8.30pm

fun. fun. fun.

hey y'all!! okay. got lots of pics to upload so better start now!

yesterday supposedly to have band from 9-1pm. have band room clean up, section lunch, followed by handover. i didn't want to go for the handover cos i just didn't want to. so, i came at 2.30, not cos i wanted to escape band clean up (that was truly not my intention) but cos i didn't wanna be there for handover. my very own tiny show of protest =) and besides, i came back from malaysia late the day before and got to sleep only at 1am. so forgive me if i am just too darn exhausted to see some people's faces.

anyway, that's not the main story. i reached at 2.30pm. waited for aida to finish her comm meeting which ended at 3pm. so while waiting.. me, max and jerald were entertaining ourselves by flipping through the pages of the straits time and pointing out who's who's boyfriend/girlfriend. jeryl got miss singapore, ryan got rhinoceros =D .

we were bored.

oh! and ryan and jeryl made for each of us a nice little present =) so sweet!! thanks you both! i'm gonna miss you guys =(

then, we went marina square by train.

kenneth didn't know bubblegums were illegal =D

we went bowling!!!

it was seniors vs juniors =)

omg. i totally didn't know ryan was left-handed!! he doesn't have the left-handed look..

kenneth in action..

here's our scores for round 1!! we played 2 rounds.. and everything was paid for by ryan! thanks loads.. you rock!

don't mess with us.. our guru is kungfu panda!!

then, arcade for a while.

then swensens! totally broke right now. thanks max n aida for lending me some money!

jeryl is so funny!! i was laughing my guts out while watching max and jeryl fighting... hahahs! max ended up sprinkling cheese and chilli flakes into jeryl's drink. hahas. he was trying to get rid of the flakes bit by bit... but to no avail =(

here's him cam whoring by himself =D

yummy.. i'm in heaven!! sticky chewy chocolate =p

then, a little bit more arcade.

then, home sweet home =)

i love trumpet.. and trumpeters =D

<3<3<3

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torn into pieces, 6/06/2008 08:00:00 PM

some pics of Homestay @ Kg. Pelegong (2nd - 4th June 2008)

me. adik aiman. adik asri. liyana. aren't they just ADORABLE?!

sweet memories lasts forever =)

the congkak fanatic =D

happiness =)

sungei fun-ness!!

i'll hunt people down for more pics and i'll post them!

cya soon!!

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torn into pieces, 6/04/2008 11:37:00 PM

HOMESTAY @ KAMPONG PELEGONG
(negri sembilan, malaysia)

hey y'all!! i just came back to singapore about 2 hours ago!! negri sembilan at malaysia was fun.. especially homestay programme @ kampong pelegong!!!!!!!! i miss my adopted family alot =( i was really sad to leave them after getting to know them so well....... but like they say; all good things must come to an end.

i brought RM99 and i finished everything!! yay! i achieved my goal. everything that i bought was food, besides 1 key chain. i bought lots of food for my family in s'pore. sigh. it was a great experience, living in a kampong environment. so fun! i swear, i did not feel any stress at all during the entire stay there. but once we crossed the causeway, thus entering singapore's territory, i suddenly felt the pressure. i am so not making this up. man.... i just wanna stay there. really. with my biological family too, of course. when i retire, i wanna stay somewhere like that, where there are no high rise buildings, and green pastures and fields surrounding me, with happy and peaceful families as neighbours, and many small, but well behaved, kids!!!! i miss my adopted brothers and sisters =( i love everyone of them to bits. i really miss them, i wanna cry =(

then, came back and discovered i didn't get a chance for interview for band exco cos i was in malaysia during the interview period. *rolls eyes*. i know the chances of me getting a postition is very thin but i just wanted to get through the interview just so that i know i at least tried. besides, its not as if i did not tell them in advanced. ASANIDE.

what an asanide way to end the whole beautiful day.

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torn into pieces, 5/31/2008 04:01:00 PM

manifestasi @ tpjc.

hey there.

yesterday, had econs tutorial in the morning. then, went home. got changed and left house at 7pm. reached TPJC in time for MANIFESTASI!!

hahas. met some people there : safiah, shila, syazana. wow. just realised all their names starts with 'S'. including mine. and some others.

manefestasi was actually m0re than what i expected. and trust me.. my expectation wasn't all that high cos im not exactly a fanatic of malay productions. but it was cool. the whole show was funny and stuff. and don't get me started with the dikir barat. one word to describe it : fan-freakin'-tastic.

after that, went tmart mac and had supper with liyana and baz. and then something happened. which i shall not elaborate on. waited for baz's and liyana's bus.

reached home 12+. couldn't get to sleep. kept on wondering... and still am.

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torn into pieces, 5/11/2008 09:03:00 PM

Prelude 28 : 10th May 2008, 7pm, VCH.

the best concert i've ever performed in. period.

1st half:
Hans Cristian Andersen Suite
Inn of the sixth happiness
Die fledermaus (ouverture)
Highlights of spirited away

Intermission

2nd half:
STAGEBAND (year one production)
Percussion Ensemble
With Heart and Voice
Robin Hood
Disco Party III
TJC College Anthem

Encore piece - Disco Party II

FUN FUN FUN.
stageband was a huge success!! we were all very worried that it would suck and didn't expect it to be fantastic but it was! the audience was laughing throughout! (it was kinda full house!) our stageband story was based on "Phantom of the Opera". it was a blast =D

and now for pics. too bad i forgot to bring a camera........ thanks lots aida!!! without you, i wouldn't have been able to capture the memories of prelude 28!!

kenneth, kwang yi, jerald (j1 trumpeters)

don't mess with us cos we will shoot you with our finger pistols!

me n aida!!

year 1 pic (i was about to sneeze when they took the shot!!!)

unglam ky

sleeping in the bus

high trumpeters

yayness!

scandal! (ky n kenneth behind the curtains)

i love this shot.. cos kenneth look like a model!! doesn't he?!

shots in the bus on the way back home after prelude....

trying to look emo...................................................

i was about to sneeze again! eh.. i was sick okay...

the year 1 trumpeters =)

section shots!

trumpet glory =)

during rehersal @ VCH

morning of prelude during stageband prac. the kissing lesson by jeryl and jonathan =D

it was a blast. too bad it lasted for just over 2 hours =(

sorry to those who weren't there. really.

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torn into pieces, 4/21/2008 10:56:00 PM

Life currently suck... real bad.

today has been quite a screwed up day. actually... its been a great day until after school. i was in a great mood and decided to go for sectionals early so that i can do some catching up of my own. first couldn't find the file. then, they had jazz band, which (CONVINIENTLY FOR EVERYONE) i am not in. whatever. i knew it was coming anyway. just say it to my face, don't beat around the freakin' bush. i was about to pull out anyway. i'm not that dense. it doesn't take a genius to read between the lines.

then, had to practice on my own. had a breakdown. smsed liyana and told her i needed someone. i am so grateful to her for being there for me. even though she was already out of school and on her way home already, she came back to school for me. thanks loads =)

im just frustrated with everyone, including me. its that phase in life again where i feel like everything is falling to pieces and im struggling so hard to remain standing. i feel like no matter what i do, i'll never be good enough. cos whatever it is that i do, there is always someone better. i am always second best. always. and i am getting sick of it.

i wanna give up, but i don't want to. cos i know if i do, i will regret it for the rest of my life. besides, i am so not a quitter. but... sigh. i've reached the point of exhaustion - feeling so drained out that i don't feel alive at all.

in secondary school days, i've always loved band. its the thing that kept me ticking. but jc band is just different. i still love it, but it just isn't the same........

i suck. i suck. i suck.

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torn into pieces, 2/26/2008 09:20:00 PM

Bubbling Hatred.

Hey. i just needed to let out all this steam. argh. have you ever met someone who makes you soooo angry? she makes you hate her... really. she purposely say things that provokes you and makes you hate her even more that you possibly can.. have you ever met someone as such? if you haven't, lucky you. i have. i am just unfortunate enough to have that person in my life. call it a test of patience, but i call it hell, torture. never met such an asshole in my entire life before. i mean, i never knew there were such people in this world, people who has no moral values at all... NONE. really. SUCK. always put herself before others. i've had enough with people who put themselves before others every single fucking time. again, THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU, DUMB ASS. stop thinking that the end of the world is when you die. cos really, you are just over your head. and even worse, i cannot do anything about it. it isn't in my power. fortunately, i have enough moral values to resist pulling her hair and banging it on the wall, and then stabbing her many times over. yes. gruesome thoughts. but she is the cause of it. period.

you suck.

get a life.

and stop ruining mine.

if i had a choice, i never want to see/talk to you for the rest of my life. but unfortunately, i don't.

life is cruel.

fuck off.

i really hate you.

to all readers (except her), sorry for being really blunt and vulgar.

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